If change is so necessary to life then why do we avoid it like the plague? We all know that if nothing ever changes and everything stays the same, then there is no room for progression. So why don’t we embrace change when it presents itself? Because it’s scary! We all have a comfort zone and we know what our individual levels of comfort consist of. The thought of change itself is so appealing, but when it’s time to take those steps towards it then things get a little shaky.
I’m the type that is constantly evaluating my life and progression, so I’m always looking at ways to evolve myself. However, here lately I’ve only been envisioning where I would like to be without putting any real effort into getting it. I began having unsettling feelings of resentment towards myself because I haven’t been going after all the things I want in life. I reached a standstill where I couldn’t really move forward, but knew I didn’t want to move backwards either.
I don’t really know where how my turning point came about, but somehow I started realizing that I need more. I just feel like there’s so much more to life than what I’m experiencing right now. I’ve had dreams of traveling the world since I was little, I want to write or edit magazine columns or maybe publish books. I know that I can’t do any of these things living in my hometown, so I need to work my way up to moving away. I know that I want a happy family life, regardless of what the family consists of… who knows it could very well just be me and Trey. I HONESTLY DON’T KNOW. The thought of the future scares me so much and embracing the changes I’ve been recently making in my life scares me even more.
However, what I DO know is that I’m not completely happy with where I am. I know that I’m completely content and if I never made any changes at all, I’d be OK where I am today but I’ll always feel like I held myself back from my full potential. So what I’ve done is started making small, conscious decisions over my life for the past two weeks to figure out how I’m going to better myself as a person. The only thing about these changes is that sometimes you leave behind things you loved. Whether it’s a relationship, an old habit, family, etc there is always something left behind after a big change. At the end of the day, you have to decide to put yourself first and go for what you really want. You’re the only person who has control over your life and your choices, so you have to make them for you and you only! SN: I’ll go into details about all my changes soon enough! In the meantime, if there’s something you’re not happy with, before you complain… CHANGE