No matter how happy I am, I’ve realized that happiness is a fleeting feeling that only comes with the good times in life; but it never stays with me forever. Everything could be going right in my life, making me 100% happy, but no matter what I always feel like something is missing. Well they say it’s best to find joy instead of seeking happiness and it’s taken me quite some time to recognize that as the truth. See I tend to stand in denial at times when it comes to happiness because I never want to seem ungrateful for the great things that go on in my life. But who wants their happiness to be contingent upon their current position in life, where they stand in situations, or people in the world who have yet to find their own way? That’s exactly what happiness is.
I know I’m extra late with this post, but regardless of time I had too much fun not to share. My 25th birthday was everything I wanted it to be! I had so much fun in ATL and cannot wait to get back down there. I think that will be my new place to take road trips vs my usual random trips to Charlotte. It’s definitely time to upgrade! Me and my best friend Tia had a ball the whole weekend, doing things that only we would understand the joy of lol. Gotta love us! The weekend was so exciting and fast paced that I decided to give a play by play. I hope you’re ready lol.
As of today I’m starting this 30 day blogging challenge that I found online, where you post on a different topic everyday. Today’s topic just so happens to be the one thing I rarely ever talk about… My relationship status. A month ago, I would’ve said I don’t know what it is to be honest lol. Two months ago I would’ve said I was single. Today I’m smitten and by all means taken. This is what a walk in my love life looks like lol. I’ve been dating the same guy off and on for three years now, but I go back and forth more than anyone I know. I tend to run in the opposite direction when the going gets tough, but over time I’ve learned the art of picking and choosing what’s worth fighting for.
Continue reading [Day 1] My Current Relationship
With everything going on in the Ville, from drive by shootings and people younger than myself losing their lives behind it, I just don’t know what to say. I really had a flashback to one of the worst times in my life, and I had to shake my head at how things haven’t really changed at all since then. With every season of every year comes a new tragedy. Whether it’s local or national or someone we know or don’t, it’s really hard to see bad things happen to good people. The sad thing about it is that all tragedies usually could have been avoided in some way. If one person had just thought a little more before they acted or reacted then certain situations may have never happened. At the same time, God already knows all these things are going to happen so whenever something is meant to be, we can’t question it.
I have not had any time whatsoever to blog. Trust me, I’ve wanted to but I can’t allow it to happen because there’s a ton of other stuff I have going on right now. For starters, school is full of bs lol. Don’t listen to me for real because college is so important, but I’m really feeling the pains of senioritis right now. I’ve been working twice as hard this semester so I can pull my overall GPA up to get into grad school next year. And with four classes, a PT job and a kid… It’s far from easy!
On top of that I seem to have overbooked myself for the next few weeks. I have two upcoming concerts to attend this weekend, my son’s birthday is in two weeks, I’m on baby watch for my best friend who’s due any day now, and there’s a slew of other things going on. THEN the kicker is, which I still can’t even wrap my head around myself, is that I’ve decided to move back home. After two years of being on my own, I’m actually moving back home.
Now if you know me, well you still may not get how huge this is. A year ago, this would not have been an option for me because I like my privacy entirely too much. However, after much deliberation on what I want in life and how I’m gonna get it, I think this is the best choice I could make. So I’m in the process of making a life changing alteration in hopes of creating new, life changing opportunities for myself. I could go on and on about how nervous I am, how I’m slightly piqued by what’s to come, and how liberated I feel to finally do something for ME, but then what would I leave to write about once it happens?? Stay tuned because I feel like it’s gonna be a helluva ride!
If change is so necessary to life then why do we avoid it like the plague? We all know that if nothing ever changes and everything stays the same, then there is no room for progression. So why don’t we embrace change when it presents itself? Because it’s scary! We all have a comfort zone and we know what our individual levels of comfort consist of. The thought of change itself is so appealing, but when it’s time to take those steps towards it then things get a little shaky.
I went to church yesterday for the first time in a good two months, and when I got there I was surprised to find that our pastor wasn’t preaching for the day. He was gone to Texas to see the Redskins play the Cowboys. Any who we had another minister from our church speaking and I absolutely loved his message and the metaphor he used.
Continue reading [Positive Monday] Bouncing Back
Everyone loves to be appreciated for their hard work, there is no feeling quite like it. Today I received an email from my boss thanking me for my help with registration for a 5K run we held this past Friday. Now I wasn’t expecting this at all because to my understanding if you’re an assistant, well that’s what you do is assist.
To be acknowledged for changing my work hours for the day was something I’ve never experienced at work before. A few of my old bosses were far from the most appreciative; even though they weren’t all THAT bad, they weren’t so quick to voice their thanks either. I can’t express how much this simple email made my day! All he did was thank me for my services and it has me cheesing like a Cheshire.
If there are people in your life who go out of there way for you, are always there, and you know you can depend on them then be sure to let them know how much you appreciate them. A little appreciation goes a long way!
Yesterday started off as a good day, it really did. But that’s definitely not how it ended. I can’t really say that anything devastating or life changing happened to make the day do a 180. You know how little bs after bs keeps happening through out the day until you realize it’s just not your day? That was MY day yesterday 😦
Know what I did though? I kept going strong throughout the whole day. I had some cleaning and washing I needed to do, so I gave that my all to keep my mind occupied and not get myself down. Let’s just say that Trey’s room is now the cleanest it’s ever been, and all my clothes are clean. Now that I have that out of the way, I have opened the door for myself to focus on my upcoming exam and not worry about anything else at the moment. I could have easily chose to spend the rest of my day wallowing in my feelings and being unproductive, but instead I chose to finish strong. Just because things don’t go your way, doesn’t mean you have to deem your day as a bad one! FINISH STRONG
For as long as I can remember, beef roast has been my favorite Sunday meal. My grandma usually makes beef roast on Sundays, as well as my aunt, and it’s been passed down to my mom as well. Now I can cook but I ain’t no soul food queen, so I never tried to make one on my own. Well Saturday night my mom told me she was making a roast and I got hype off bat. THEN she decides to text me at 9 am Sunday morning to tell me she changed her mind. Talk about devastating!
I knew I had to take action lol. After laying around and debating for awhile, I decided I was gonna try this thing on my own. I got my mom to tell me the steps she takes and all the ingredients I would need. I made my store run and got so caught up in preparing my meat that I forgot to pick up any sides lol. Let’s just say that four hours later I had the most tender roast beef and potatoes and the best damned gravy you could imagine. And no I’m not telling how I made it, just know I’m on my way! LOL!! What’s your favorite Sunday dinner??